Somewhere only we know
" No one can make you feel inferior without your consent" - unknown
Salam to all.
GAL means get a life. Yeah I need one. Somehow, it feels the same. Pre-SPM or post-SPM. Freedom isnt the right term. I dont know what freedom means to me. Does freedom means you're allowed to go out with your girlfriends and come back late at night? Does it mean you can go on the internet 24/7 without realizing that the world is somehow ill? Sigh. You see, it clearly shows how weak I am in appreciating what I have in life. No, I was not born with a silver spoon in my mouth, but supposedly, my childhood days went through smoothly. Of course, I was an infant and a child, who couldn't care less about the surrounding and all that matters was toys and getting enough food.
I usually ponder and have these thoughts popping into mind, I tried to become a great Caliph to Allah, and why don't I get anything in return? Why must I suffer first before gaining the triumph? Why am I now so immune to failures? Why am I not like my friends whom seldom getting this and that without deserving it? Why do I have the feeling of caring for my friends so much, and that some of them don't even have the slightest idea of what kind of ordeals I'm going through? Why do I have uncertainties? Why does she has all that but she doesnt appreciate it? Why can't some people accept me the way I am? Why cant my loved ones understand my needs as a person?
After going through some thoughts, watching those stuck-ups on TV and muhasabah diri all I can say is, Munirah be thankful with what you have. Just be thankful. Open your eyes, think wisely. God has given what he thinks is sufficient for you. Patience is virtue, being patient will make you feel rewarded with something. You will feel it someday, just waiting for the time to arrive needs patient. Never doubt His ability, I will repeat for myself, NEVER doubt his ability. He knows what is best for his servants.
The reason why I have these thoughts is because I kept on thinking about my luck for the future. Yes, I think beyond the box. I am hope to my parents and my siblings. Is 9A's in my hands? Just pray hard.
DOAKAN KEJAYAAN SAYA WAHAI MANUSIA SEKALIAN :)
Taa.

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illy : again, we are in the same boat. I hope my writings wont make you feel down. In this life, we just have to keep on going rite? ;)